Saturday, November 21, 2009

~I Love Myself~

It has been said before that you must first learn to love yourself before you can ever completely love another person. We must learn to accept ourselves as we are.

I personally think that we should never change who we are for anybody else. It will only be a successful transformation if we are doing it for the right reasons. I have accepted myself for who I am. Though I don't love my body but I am content with my heart, mind and soul.
I know I have a lot of love to offer and give to someone without cheapening myself in any way.

I used to change myself for a man called 'boyfriend'. I like the fact that he wanted me to look good. It motivated me to lose weight.

But after we broke up, I stopped dieting drasctically. I stopped working out. My weight
has skyrocketed to a whopping **kg. Then only I realized, all this while I was losing weight just for the sake of him. I just wanted him to be happy. I just wanted him to be proud of me. So pathetic ey?

I'm trying to love my body now though it's very demotivating, looking at those flabs and large numbers on the weighing machine. But I've learnt that sexy body doesn't guarantee you a happy life. A lot of hot women out there are suffering, waiting to be divorced by their husband.

I know there's someone out there who loves me for who I am. Just that I haven't met 'that' someone yet. I have to feel proud to be me. I have to be confident!

I will lose weight before I get married, that's for sure. I wanna look good in my wedding dress.. :)

"Love is a two-way street. You shouldn't be in a relationship unless what you love about yourself is also loved by the other person"

I Miss You, Bestest Friend...


Sometimes the pause in friendships become so frozen, it is difficult to reach out. There are multiple layers of misunderstanding and you know you can't scape it out at one go. You want to get rid of this bit of the glass wall, but something holds you back.


I'm not in a good term with my bestest friend. We haven't been talking for months.


I received a message from her on Facebook yesterday, telling me how much she missed our friendship. Tears streaming down my face...I miss those days when we used to be the best of friends. She was always there through my ups n downs and never failed to make me smile..

She's 4 months preggie. It's sad that I can't be there when she needs me and vice versa. She told me she really wanted me to accompany her to buy stuff for her baby and how sorry she was when she read all my sad status on Facebook. Yes, I was feeling down these past few days. I needed someone to talk to and she used to be the one I look for whenever I need a shoulder to cry on.


I really wanna talk to her but everytime I tried to call her, I always end up pressing the 'cancel' button. There's something stopping me. I guess it's the feeling I've been keeping for so long. I can't talk to her about it cause I know she will come up with thousand excuses..


Yeen,

I miss you, I really do. I want you to know that no matter what happen between us, you will always be my bestest friend. I just want you to understand the meaning of FRIENDSHIP. It's not about bragging on Facebook of how close we are or post up pictures of us together to show them how much we love each other. It's MORE than that. Friendship is about how much you are willing to sacrifice for her, how much you treasure the moment when you are together and how much you need her in your life. I hope you know how much you mean to me and how much I appreciate our friendship..

I'm not mad no more and you are forgiven..

p/s: I didn't throw your 'cat'. It's always on my bed, next to me.. :)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Please Be EXTRA Careful...


This is what happened to my sister's bestfriend who is studying in Melbourne. It was written by her sister.....

"She walked out the door around 11.30ish this morning. On her way to school, she felt like somebody was following her very closely. Thinking that it was a main and busy road, she didn't call anyone straight away, but expressed it on her status instead. Until I got a call from Farah at about 1pm, told me that Syara said Hanna didn't turn up to class which was supposed to be at 12.30 and that her cellphone was switched off right after she updated her status. Jai ran out to find her and when he tried to call her, luckily it turns out that she just gained her consciousness at that moment. So here's what happened..

The minute she thought that she was followed, she pretended like she was heading to 7E instead of walking straight up. Apparently that didn't stop him from following. As she took a few more steps, he came and put his left hand around her shoulder while the other hand was holding something sharp like a knife and pointed it to her body and he said "Keep quiet...follow me...keep quiet.."

Next to him was a white car parked by the pavement and she was pushed inside, where another 3 men in black masks were waiting. All Hanna heard was just some laughs and she was knocked on the head with a hard object a few times until she lost conscious.

She woke up somewhere in a closed area, with her hands tied up by some sort of wire, a bump and wound on the forehead, strangled marks on her neck, and sharp cuts here & there. As soon as she realized that she was all alone on the ground, she tried to get up and the whole body was aching so bad. She unlocked a 'gate', squeezed herself out and ran as fast as she could, away from there, with the thought that they're still around. She tried to run away. That was the moment that she switched on her mobile and Jai called. She was crying out loud, helpless. Not so long after, Jai arrived. And then me. Then the Victorian police and detectives. And the ambulance.

After an hour or so, we were sent to the forensics. And now we're going to the hospital for a thorough check up. Your prayers for Hanna are much appreciated. TQ"

Click on the link to read the news :


So gals, be extra careful no matter where you are. Anything can happen anywhere. Even when you are with a group of friends, there's still a possibility for it to happen.

So be aware with the people around you okay? I can't afford to lose any of you....

Thursday, November 5, 2009

S.O.S




HELP!!!!

I have no idea what's wrong with my lappy but I'm sure it has something to do with the link I accidentally clicked on my Facebook page last 2 weeks..Since then a box keeps popping up whenever I'm online. It pops-up every 5 minutes, sometimes even less than that! I will have to enter a keyword within a specific time.

Can you imagine how annoying it is when you are doing something urgent online, then a box pop-up out of nowhere asking you to key in some words? And sometimes it's not even a word! It's more like a secret code or something and it's damn long!

So guys....If you are good in IT, please help me..I might have installed something on my lappy and I can remove it but the problem is, I can't even remember what application I have installed! Silly me!

Is it some kind of virus? Would it affect the files in my C-drive? Is there any other ways instead of re-formatting my lappy?

I'm sick of it and it's so disturbing.... ;(

A.K.O.N












24th october 2009

Akon Freedom Beach Concert was AWESOME! It's been a while since I last went to any concerts. The last one was in 2007 for Boys 2 Men World Tour at Genting Highland.

I'm actually not a die-hard-fan of Akon but somehow, I find his songs very soothing. Great melodies, unique vocal, nice lyrics..He captured my heart with his signature tunes like Right Na-Na-Na, I'm So Paid, Beautiful, Be With You and the list goes on...

The concert was opened by the talented Nikky and Caprice before Akon showed up on the stage. He started the concert with his new songs from his latest album, Freedom. What a good performer he was..We got excited when he took off his shirt and showed off his body!

I guess I wasn't lucky enough to get to see him for the after-party but it was worth it to see him on stage singing live for his fans (despite the miming part which I only knew at the end of the concert).. Anyways, it was a great show indeed!

Owh yeah! Lemme share with you how I managed to get the money to buy the tix...As you know, I'm jobless...So spending money on entertainment like this is a big NO-NO for me at the moment...So what I did was, I had a talk with my sister and made her pay me for the housechores I did for her! I went to her house in Sunway a week before the concert: I mopped the floor, washed the toilet, cleaned the room and kitchen and taaraaaaa! RM100 for the tix! Thank you sista!

So Akon, you better appreciate this fan of yours...I worked hard to see you live! ;)


video

Friday, October 30, 2009

Dear Ex....


Dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him.
Dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies.
Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears.
Dear heart, sorry for all the damage.
Dear me, sorry for being head-over-heels in love with him.

Dear EX, you are HISTORY....

Saturday, October 17, 2009

R.I.P Stephen Gately...



Gately was found dead on the sofa in his apartment after a night out with his gay partner, Andrew on 10th October 2009...

Im gonna miss you, handsome...May God bless you...

You....Yes, YOU!


YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.... :)

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

~Get To Know Me Better~


OMG! This is so TRUE..I have never read anything like this before..Ya know, something that describes me from A to Z....I guess my closest buds know the real me; like how sensitive I can be at times and how much I care about my loved ones...I'm sharing this with you guys coz I want you to get a clearer picture of who I truly am....Enjoy.. :)

Have you met a CANCERIAN woman recently? Are you a little confused as to what she really is - chirpy or somber or distant? She is all of these and still, she is none of these..More confused? A Cancerian woman has mood swings every now and then and these are some of her mood swings only. However, her basic personality traits remain the same. She is very sensitive, emotional, kind and caring. Now's the catch! Most of her traits will be hidden behind a shell of indifference and aloofness.

You will have to gently coerce a Cancerian girl to get out of that shell and come into the big bad world without it. The best time to do this is in the moonlight, when there are maximum changes of catching her in her true emotions. When in love, she will be tender, womanly, timid and modest. She dislikes criticisms, can't stand rejection and gets deeply hurt by harsh words. Too much aggressiveness on your part may make her a little hesitant. A Cancer woman will never make the first move in a relationship; she only knows how to make backwards or sideways..

This is because of two reasons, her shyness and the fear of being rejected. She loves her mother, so you better learn to love as well as respect her too. This female has some secrets and she wont like your prying around her personal diaries. She is very insecure and will need your constant reassurance. It doesn't matter if she is the current 'Miss Universe' or has men drooling over her all the time. It is your attention and appreciation she is the most concerned about. A Cancer female is a great cook and makes better food than a five-star hotel chef.

However you will have to learn to live with her mood swings, which is not so difficult since she is so good in every other way. She is extremely loyal and will keep you happy with her warm and rich humor. Once she is committed to you, she will remain yours forever and ever. Adultery is not one of the traits of her characteristics profile. With a Cancerian woman, you will always have to be careful with words. She is very sentimental and can get hurt very easily. Then, she can cry like a two-year old baby..

You will be expected to console her and wipe her tears. Cancerian women are quite careful with money. Neither they will be stingy, not totally extravagant. They have a habit of saving everything that is usable, be it money or old buttons or empty jars. They also carefully save things that have a sentimental value attached to them, like the sweater grandmother knitted on their fifth birthday. A Cancer female fiercely guards what is hers and that includes you too! However, she is not too possessive or jealous. But she does not like sharing her love..

She is one of those people who do not crib about bad luck. She will get depressed and may shed a few tears alone, but she will be patient and wait for the time to change again, this time in her favor. Almost all the Cancerians have the desire of being pampered like a child, especially when they feel low. Don't forget to pay your Cancer girl extra attention when she is depressed, otherwise she may retreat deeper into her shell. Then it will be very difficult to bring her back to her normal self.

She will want to be told time and again that she is still desirable and you still need her. However, she is not weak and is completely capable of looking after herself. Infact, she is one of those who sacrifice all that they have, for the loved ones. She just needs some spoiling after every few days. A Cancerian woman maybe fragile as far as her feelings are concerned, but when you need her, she will be as strong as the 'Rock Of Gibraltar'. She will also be very protective over her children and make them feel completely secure.

They will be the center of her universe and she will pamper them with her love, affection and care. The children will also be very close to her and no matter how much far they go from home, they will come back to her and she knows this. A Cancer female always needs you, but she will never get too aggressive. She knows that you may leave for a while, to follow your dreams, but in the end, she is the one you will come back to. Then, you will find her as charming as before, waiting for you with freshly baked bread and hot soup. She will feed you, listen to your worries and make you smile again.... :)

xoxo

Sunday, October 11, 2009

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